I'm Not Scared...Am I?

I know its been a while since I've written to you, but I guess I've been sorting through a lot of feelings and thoughts.

I'm curious as to what you REALLY think about love? Is it really worth all the trouble?

Love makes me feel like I'm fighting a losing battle. Half the time I don't know whether I'm coming or going, and feeling foolish all the while.

Am I silly for loving this hard, this deep? I wonder if we are putting ourselves through all this for nothing. If love is real then where is the payoff, and when do I get mine?

"Everyone falls, you just be careful of falling and staying there..." is that what we do when we fall out of love? Are we in a rut? I understand that love is a mutual thing or should be at least but how come when we give in to love, it feels like we end up loosing? Who is the referee and why hasn't he blown the whistle yet? I call foul, charge or something!!

Have you ever given so much that there's nothing left over for you? People we are being taken for fools in this love game! I'm not saying give up on love but instead wake up and see it for what it is...a ploy to get us to open up, be giving, forgiving and understanding, patient, supportive and even after all that there is no guarantee.

Are we going to be afraid to love the next time love comes knocking at our door, and if it does come back how will you react? Will you do all the things that you've done in this one?

"I'm not scared of lions and tigers and bears...but I'm scared of loving you," is this really what its come to?

Love is a risk that I wish there was insurance for...hmmm how much does it cost to fix a broken heart?