Letting go is the hardest part of having a relationship. Moving on and forward can some times seem impossible, especially when you weren't the one ready to put an end to things in the first place.
How come no one tells us that love is all good until its time to come down from the high it gives?
We have our lives planned, and think that we will find some one, they'll sweep us off our feet, we'll get married and ride off into the sunset together. And when things don't work like that it almost puts us in a catatonic trance, a coma if you will.
Why is it that we keep ourselves from feeling what we need to feel, in order to move on? Why do our friends try to take our minds off of the emotions that we need to feel that are apart of the "grieving" process; because that's what a break up is-the death of one part of our lives-isn't it? What's wrong with being just a little sad for a little while?
Sometimes love seems timeless and all I can do think of how this person has changed my life, how he has showed me how incredibly strong, overwhelmingly vulnerable I am and how loyal my love can be. I catch my self having to defend my feelings to friends and family which seems dumb. It is. I am a grown woman and I feel sorry for any other woman who has not had the opportunity to love this deep, to this magnitude, with this much sincerity.
I wish I knew what it was that kept my mind constantly on him, even when I'm not in the wrong, when I'm innocent, and things are just flat out bad...I love him. Even though I don't know what he's thinking, or doing, I still catch my thoughts running off track, and him running on the same one. His aura has some type of pull on me. Maybe what I am feeling is unnatural, because when you think about it, I mean REALLY think about it, the love I feel is bordering un-healthy. I would do anything for him, he is my friend, and at this point I could careless that people will judge what I'm feeling and how I choose to express my feelings but oh well! No matter what anyone says I refuse to believe that he doesn't think of me like I think of him...
This man is a force of nature, nothing to be reckoned with. Loving him is a typhoon- a total disaster- but a beautiful one. I love this man...and I can't stop....he's like a force of nature
2023. (Written early 2023)
1 year ago
3 comments:
Perfectly expressed. I always tip toe the line of insane when im in love. To feel that way is natural. To be so mad at someone and to still fear for their saftey and well being even when they totally just drug you down through the dirt... Love is so great. Its like a crack addiction.
I feel you girl! Only you can decide when you are ready to let go... Love is a very powerful drug and extremely harmful!!! Time will tell!!!!! Love ya baby cakes!!!
~Lyrical Bee
Yea i feelyou on this...Life is is crazy..but as long as you know how you feel, what you feel...and your happy..thats what matter...but on the other hand i look at it like this...through my eyes...being a relationshiop took time...fell in love...etc..the whole kitankaboodle...then there was infidelity on her part...after ive done everything ..im not the one to be hangin around, im sorry..so i let her go...and I been single eversince..im single by choice..everyday i see infidilety...etc..but is it wrong for me to not wanting to be in a relationship if all i see around in people cheating..etc..? for example..a kouple kan have a picture on facebook with their partner..but an hour later i see that person in walmart walkin around holdin hands with someone that not in the picture. but i see that with everything. basically what im gettin at is this Today folks are not as sure of this as they used to be. Now the value of marriage, and even the gender of the partners involved in it, are being seriously questioned.Today folks are not as sure of this as they used to be. so why would i put myself in that situation if i already know the outkome...why put your hand in boilin water when you know its hot? relationships are just a title nowadays. yes there are some good women out there, but i seen the best of women mess up..cheat...im not sayin im perfect but doggone...so i say to you..if you have someone that is what you are lookin for..hold on..take heed...and jus enjoy it...Life is crazy and so are the people in it..lol...
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